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i've been bitten by the myspace bug!  i have officially become a myspace slut!  anyway, it's been a very long time since my last post, and i apologize for that...  a lot has happened since then that i'm not even getting into, because it's not worth bringing it all up again, because it has already happened...  and by saying that, it only further intrigues your imagination about what it is, right?  haha... 

sammy and i, after a decently long rut, are doing very well now...  things looked very shady there for a while, but i can see exactly where we are now...    i'm still not sure how long we will last, but all i can do is ride this out as long as it will last...  thats what i feel is the right thing to do right now...

so, lately has been one of the most stressful times of my life...  between thinking about senior year and college being right around the corner, studying for my SATs, actually taking my SATs, keeping my grades up to a decent standard (chem. can blow one along with adv. eng.), learning lines for the musical (which i am THE lead character in, and there are so many *insert word of choice here* ING lines in that musical for my part), learning music for the all-Virginia choir next weekend (which is some of the hardest i've seen yet), dealing with mr. B telling lies in class all the time, dealing with his rants, dealing with crazy theatre people in rehearsal (yes that was a personal insult, and you know if i like you or not), pleasing my parents from the time i walk in the door and while i'm doing homework, and keeping things going with sammy and i...  i'm not that busy with anything going on in my life right now...  it's just the most hectic time yet...  and i only feel it getting more hectic...  not only is one of my performances of the musical the same day as i take my SAT, but the SOLs are the following two weeks... 

another strange phenomenon has been happening to me...  just as soon as i go to turn on my PS2 and night and play hours of video games...  a pencil levitates to my hand...  to my other hand, a sheet of paper...  and then my backpack grows legs and walks to me, begging for me to do the homework contained in it...  and i sit down and do homework for hours...  this results in me knowing how to do limiting reagent chemistry formulas and knowing that hitler killed 6,000,000 jews in WWII in contrast to knowing that my Corvette will have 678HP once i upgrade to a supercharger on GT4...  anyway, it seems to be working a good job on my grades... 

this weekend sammy and i had a picnic at belle isle, which was very nice and romantic...  sitting on the rocks eating tuna fish while we were freezing cold from the wind and the stuff blowing everywhere for the picnic...  and sammy not bringing forks...  and my uncomfy sandals...  hehe...  we then went from there to cary street and walked around the shops for a while...  sammy spotted a shop where she would shop for her apartment when she got back to tech the following year...  a very good weekend altogether, and we stayed busy too...  which i always like...

in a strange mood...  but good...  not shouting good, but it's an underlying good...  tired too...  goodnight... 

quicksand...

the harder you try to get out, the farther you sink... 

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i'm in a really good mood right now...  today was a cool day, picked up some government tax return money (thanks uncle sam!) and picked up sammy, then we went to Maymont park to check the animals and scenery out...  i hadn't been there in a while and i had forgotten how nice it is there...   we then went to krispy kreme to get doughnuts...  unbelieveable...  haha...  then went to short pump, and i bought a new SAT prep book and the Los Lonely Boys CD...  such a great CD!  awesome music, and it's highly recommended by John Tyndall himself, so you know it's gotta be off the hook...    then we went to the maggiano's parking lot, and had a well needed talk...  things got worked out that needed to be worked out, and im so happy...  things were looking very grim for a while, but i think things are going to be good from here on out...  we then went to maggiano's (also highly recommended by John Tyndall himself) and sammy got chicken parmesean and i got four cheese ravioli...  it was amazing...  that restaurant is like skydiving, you just gotta do it before you die...  then we went back to her house and watched 2 hours of plastic surgery on TV...  but we had good time together, and thats all i could ever ask from her...  we never have that when she's away, and i cherish every moment i have her in my arms, because those moments last forever in my memory, and keep me going through the hard times...

other than that, i can't really say much else, other than i'm really happy about it being spring break...  tomorrow is sunday, and im not upset about it because i can stay up late again tomorrow night, and the next and the next...    this week should be fun...  then this weekend should be even MORE fun!  hehe...    i'll leave with some lyrics from Los Lonely Boys...

"Has it even been so hard on you
To carry on baby I’m here for you
Has it ever felt like it’s the end
Well just look at me again and you will surely find
The answer to everything
If you take a look inside yourself
You will surely find me there
To comfort you
Baby can you feel it
When I’m holding you close to me
I wanna hold you tight and treat you right
Baby I just want you to know
When your with me
You will never need to cry
Cause I’ll be by your side
To give all my love to you"

I love you baby...    9 kisses for 9 months...

bad mood...  bad mood...  bad mood... 

this weekend was alright...  it could have been better though...  went to jon dalton's house and watched people get drunk/high and girls kiss...  fun stuff...  spent the night at jon's and slept in his parents' bed...  one of those swedish foam things, so good...   

today was the Lee Davis showchoir competition at Hanover HS...  we won 1st place with best show design...  yay...  elegance won last night and got best sound and costumes...  yay...  so we pretty much sweeped that competition, which i was glad we did...  i was happy...  i got to receive the awards, which seems the "to-die-for" thing to do these days...  it was fun...  still, my weekend always has a hole in it without my flower to plant in the hole... 

been playing a lot of video games lately, not even sure why...  it seems like such a waste of time in life...  but, somehow rewarding at the same time, sitting on a chair,  for hours on end...

not sure whats going on with me lately...  i've been in a really weird mood, and im not sure why...  no explanation for it, just strange...  guess i'll figure this all out some day... 

chicago was the shit, thanks everybody for making two 17 hour busrides worthwhile... 

thinking about going to bed, but still typing:

this weekend was quite simple...  we went to manchester, we got stabbed with "dull spoons" (as mr. b would say) multiple times...  in other words, we kinda got shafted when it comes to judging, and the school advertising our being there...  they're supposed to make signs for every choir that performs, but they never make signs for illusion...  hmm...  sammy was there all weekend with me, and i was really glad of it, even though things didn't go as smoothly as most of the times, but she helped me with my makeup and such, and we watched some shows together, so it was a good time... 

before we performed our show, there was a solo competition which bud and i competed in...  bud won (of course, it's bud  )...  his score was 98/100 and mine was 97/100...  can't really lose any closer than that though...  i was happy for him winning though, his song was more "entertaining" anyway... 

CHICAGO!!!  CHICAGO!!!  we must watch that movie on the way up!!!  either that or when we get to...  CHICAGO! (on thursday, if no one can remember!!!)  reminds me of an ol' sinatra tune...  it's gonna be snowin like a bia there hopefully...  theres no doubt it's going to be cold as hell is hot...  im honestly not even focused on competing really, is that bad?  im just looking forward to having a great time with everyone...    roomies = bud, mike, scott mcq....  should be interesting, hehe... 

musical practice has started in full swing, and it's been going smoothly so far...  im still a little lost on all of the drama lingo and such, but i'm catching on quickly...  show is the first weekend in may!  not too far from now... 

parents have been gone for 2 and a half weeks now...  im actually starting to miss having them around telling me what to do...  i actually did my laundry tonight!  speaking of responsibility, tomorrow morning, i have to take my dog to the vet in the morning, go to school, take my SOL writing test, finish school day until 2, leave to go to dentist, come back, get dog, bring dog home, take van to airport parking lot for parents on friday, go to library (with sammy possibly) to work on english research paper, come home, pack clothes, bring in for bag check at night, then home again...  maybe to corey's house to spend the night, but not sure about that yet...  i was so pissed off that i had so much to do, but now i really don't care...  i have time to work on my english stuff on monday when we get back from the trip, so im not worried anymore...  someone call me if they want to work on it with me!  i would be more than welcome to have a study partner...  libraries can get lonely sometimes!  props to sean for the amazing picture on his xanga with the hott guy in the yellow VCU shirt...    goodnight to all...